I was going through some of my old notes.
Reading them, I found some pain.
Well, not some, lots.
I must be a pretty good actress if i could hide THAT much pain.
It leaked out sometimes, but never all at once.
Those feelings were covered up for years.
Waiting to chew out of me.
Bit by miserable bit.
But, reading them, I realized something.
Most of them have come out.
There are still broken bits inside.
There always will be.
But i'm finding myself smiling lately.
For real.
It's a funny feeling, joy.
You can be joyous when ever you please.
But when you feel joyous.
You are happy.
When you're happy, you feel a never ending ener
What can I call it but love?
But how can it be love, as I'm still so young.
Fourteen, they all say you can't feel it yet
But maybe they're wrong, because it's more than a crush
I barely know you, but I feel like I know enough
I can't even see you, yet I know that you're beautiful
I can't hold your hand, but I feel so connected
I can't hear your voice, yet I'm positive it's amazing
I want to go swimming with you
I want to walk down the beach holding your hand
I want to go biking with you
I want to hug you and never let go
I dream of running up behind you and wrapping my arms around your waist
I dream of holding your hands and lean
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Hello my loverly watchers, last night we pulled into a Best Western right across from DisneyLand. We went last night on 2 ides and the train/trolly thingy. The train thing goes around the DisneyLand park and there's little displays in between each stop. We also went on this car ride, i think called Autopia and we went up and around and stuff and you drove these little cars...driving is difficult. Then we went on a Sace Ranger Buzz Lightyear ride where you shot at these targets and spun your cart and yea. Today we've gone to CaliforniaLand so far, and we're just breaking for lunch =P We went on the Grizzl
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Yesterday's Journal
Yesterday's Video: Not Up Yet e.e
We drove yesterday (sorry for late journal) and then came to the hotel to the pool. We lunched on the dunes.
sorry, in a rush =P better one tonight (: